What is death? I use to think it meant frozen, trapped, invisible... now i know it means gone. Gone forever, never coming back.

I haven't blogged recently because my unkle (he was like a big brother to me) had cancer, for nearly 2years now && last week it got really serious. So we've all been praying, night && day && we also went to Liverpool to prepare our passports just in case worse comes to worse.

He'd been battling cancer for a v.long time it was in his back, his lungs, kidneys, front && finally in his brain. So they stopped his treatment, he NEVER, not even ONCE complained it hurt him he'd come over to see my grandad and all of us and smile && crack a joke. No one knew how serious the cancer was until yesterday, when he died. He didn't tell anyone, he didn't complain && he kept on smiling till his last breath. I cried so much yesterday, me and about 1000 other people our whole town nearly came out to pray for him && 2day was his funeral it was one of the biggest anyone had ever seen, he was loved by all && he loved everyone.

He left behind, a sister, 2 brothers, his mum, thousands of couins and his wife, 4 teenage boys the oldest being only 17 and the youngest boy being 2. && a daughter, she put up the bravest fight only recently turning 10. It's ironic how him and his dad lived their lives for other people, to make them happy and they both had a tragic ending. It's sad to think his 2 year old son, has never seen his dad properly well && won't remember the moments he had with him, but we'll show him and we'll make him realise just how wonderful his father way. So many memories, playing life a film without sound. I didn't go school today, but half the school was at the funeral anyway.

I still can't believe this is real, soo many people prayed for you so many tears cried for you. You were an amazing person, && i'm still waiting for someone to tell me this is all a lie && you're alive and well. But heaven needed an angel, && you were the perfect fit, you've been through so much pain. Having to be strong for your family, when your dad died. It's such a shame you'll never get to see your house finished, no atticks, no rooms, no kitchen. I feel for your family && baby Smiley ♥ you won't see him start school, turn into a teenager, grow up, fall down, fall in love, pass his GSCEs, go to college, get a job && get married. But i know you'll always be watching over him. ♥  I wanna say so much but i can't stop crying so for now R.I.P Unkle ♥

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